From Part 2, I got a comment that mentioned I was young, lacked knowledge, and probably had a personality disorder. In which case my response is yeah, sure, which personality disorder do I have? Cause I’ll write a 4 part series on that too, baby.
I wanted to write about my experience as an Empath, and of course no two Empaths are alike. No two sociopaths are alike. Apaths are perfectly normal people, just like Empaths and Sociopaths. You get the idea. This is not some definitive knowledge. We are all exploring life together with different abilities, enlightening each other on what we know.
As an Empath, I also enjoy experiencing physical pain. They say if your finger gets stung by a bee, you should put it in boiling water. Well that’s what pain is to me. It’s exhausting feeling emotions all day long, some that are hard to get rid of, pain is a lovely escape. It’s like I’m a balloon full of emotions and the pain pops the balloon. Things like painful massages are perfect for me. Anything done with love and care including pain can be a endorphin inducing.
Empaths can feel what the other person is feeling. This for some people feels like they’re invading other people’s privacy. For me it feels very obligatory if the other person is not feeling well, that I should help the person. Which most of the time is a stupid idea. You can’t help someone who doesn’t want help. So it just ends up with me being helpless about wanting to help. I’m not a saint, but that aggravates me to no end. I want people to succeed, be happy, move on with things in life. I don’t like seeing people be stuck or distraught in any way. For Empaths it may even seem to them that they are helping, because they feel what the other person feels but that isn’t helping. That’s just feeling.
Some Empaths are emotional empaths, some are cognitive and some are physical, they experience pain in their body when someone else is feeling bad. I am emotional, but yesterday during a screen of Beauty and the Beast, I was pretty much vibrating and getting tingling sensations through the whole movie, it was pretty wonderful. It makes me wonder if physical Empaths experience positive physical sensations when people are happy?
I don’t know how to find other Empaths. I can’t recognize them. I can’t recognize sociopaths either. I can however tell right away that I’ve met an Apath, because I’ll be somewhere experience the shit out of an emotion and the Apath won’t notice and if they do, it wont bother them at all. Which can seem like they’re being cruel. They’re not. They can’t feel what you feel, but at least they don’t try and fake it to blend in and seem normal like sociopaths do. And I don’t see Empaths and Sociopaths and Apaths as definitive either, we’re all on a spectrum and some are more than others. One thing for me makes it clear that I am an Empath is that when I was in grade 6, I use to tell people that I was on fire. I was over stimulated by emotions, other people, lights and sound. I have dreams about people I love if they are distraught. I feel super negative or positive towards people right away. It’s always very strong or nothing at all. I live with extremes. Stability, shielding, blocking, and unloading are all things Empaths need to do, and these take time and understanding. The more I connect to myself, the more I feel like I can use Empath as a tool, rather than as a source of havoc.
Part 4? Why not. Over and out.